Frustration

Venting out

For once I felt really bad that I joined NIT Trichy of all places and I was really really sorry for myself. I have got some really wonderful people from the college: friends, staff and teachers who make me love the college and make my time fun and memorable.But there are also equally bad ones among them that make me feel miserable and sick. Frankly I am very depressed with what people can do to me for the worse, inspite of me being myself. In a moment, I want to leave a mark before I leave the college, thinking of how to help nitt.edu, sun lab, GLUG-T and my delta juniors and suddenly there was a sick mishap and all I am cared about is leave that screwed up place as soon as possible for good. I am more depressed that I have many bad memories about the place.

With power comes responsibility and its time some people realized this.

But what can I do but for silently cry and writhe in pain and people who do this to me sleep peacefully at night. Is to ask for a life in college with self dignity such a crime ? I wish I had more courage.

PS : I have a wonderful set of friends, seniors, juniors and professors whom I am looking forward to for four more months.

Food and Computers !!!

Apart from these two , what really do I like ? A question from one of my friends just stumbled me. I turn back and look , I just see a chain of short lived fantasies all over. I cant remember How and Why I loved the rubiks cube ! I forget Why I wanted to be in NITT in the first place ! I loved football, Now i Dont. I loved F1, now I am least bothered ! I donno whats gone wrong in the past year ! What am I missing, I miss my sweet innocence ! I used to beleive in everyone, I used to see bright side of everyone, I used to think the world is a good place. I just dont now ! I dont use to sulk at things. Never brooded over things for hours altogether. All these things are happening now. There were tougher times earlier too, but never felt like running away ! Probably I am just losing it! Got to try and get out of it. Got to try and remember good times. Just wish I come out of all these soon ! I just don’t know what to do ! GRRRR !!!