Two years in bangalore
Either too many things happened or nothing really big happened. Either ways, life was fun this two years.
Live long and prosper !
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August 21, 2010
The pursuit of Happyness
Disclaimer: The post was written over a few months, so the continuity might be at loss and no, This is not about the Will Smith movie.
So I have been thinking. Why this rat race ? What final purpose does it solve ? If the ultimate goal of life is to be happy, why spend your time in front of computers doing somebody’s work, living somebody else’s life, which you are not sure if it matters at any level or to any one? Why live a life which you are not content about, let alone being excited about it ? What is the point of existence when one really can’t define what is fun ? I mean why can’t one be content with what oneself has ? Why the urge for more ? Or If I may, for Who ?
Do you know how a sine curve looks ? One day I live on the positive peak of it. Work is good, food is good, music I listen is good, Things I do are good. Next day, sometimes same day but on a different hour I am drowning in its negative trench. There are also times when nothing matters. Let the lightning drop next to me, I won’t move a muscle. But there are also times when even touch-me-not plant seems less sensitive. Its no f??king consolation that a lot of people feel the same way.
But off late the amplitude of that sine function has gone down. I stay closer to the normalcy line. The curve seem to have dampened with occasional minor impulses either side of the axis. And at times, I think I have got the big picture, That my purpose does not have any great cosmic significance but only to my own pursuit of happiness, which is nothing but a electrochemical state of the mind brought about by varied stimuli.
Too much thinking is bad for health.
May 24, 2009
In Trance
Have you ever been in a state where you don’t know what day/date is it and seriously have no idea of knowing it ? Have you been where nothing matters and you are totally impervious to everything that happens around you ? It is as if you realize nothing matters and so you let go of everything ? That is a dangerous place yet a really happy place to go to ! I know it drives you crazy to be there at times and at others its really enjoyable. You pass out of the college, you are supposed to feel bad. But You are as if you never lived there. You are going to a job of your dreams, you are supposed to feel good. But You are as if it never mattered and then you start wondering if that is really a job of your dreams ! All you care about is the boost that you get in the morning – is it hot enough ? does it have enough sugar ? and even that, most of the times is perfect and you tend to not care about that !
May be too much of leisure does not do good on you ! But that again sucks ! You don’t want to be the workaholic everyone knows you to be ! Then you are clearly confused what to do next. You both love and hate what you do and what kind of person does that make you ! You love doing night-outs but don’t want to do them because that makes you not normal. How can you possibly both love and hate topcoder at the same time ? Or is love and hate the same thing ? Is that all it comes down to ? May be its tough to love and hate a thing; but maybe its not that tough to like and dislike the same thing ? And what is liking and what is loving ? Where do you draw the line ? and why should it be a line and not a curve ? And why the heck do you use so many smiley-s ?
You know you are in trance and you want to get out of it. You think/wish that it will change when you go places, but that is yet to be seen. I wish it changes for you, that you don’t get into this stupid trance once again and you laugh at this post that I even cared to write it for you!
Peace ! Vaazgha 
February 13, 2009
Yahoo! open hack day
Going to yahoo! open hack day with abhilash and alagu. Looking forward to learn something Have bunked pragyan for this not that I mind 
By the way, Happy Valentines Day
January 24, 2008
Kaloorie !
I see a lot of movies these days ! Not all make an impression . But this one did and by lots . In fact i was very moved after the movie was over . I am like listening all the songs again and again nowand that too “unnarugil varugayil” and “un paarvayil oor aayiram kavithai naan ezhuthuven ! “
There was so much friendship, romance,love and all of them were so natural but for the climax. And that too , the way it happens ! cha ! I know its only a story and even the real event didnt make such an impression on me . I have seen the movie many times already now and skipped the climax alone since the first time!
I dunno, probably tragedy is not my choice of movies 
