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To be felt important !

This post might be a bit narcissistic, but I guess that much narcissism is allowed for anyone.

So far when I was at school/college, my presence was always felt and I could always make a difference to things I did. At least I think so ! I mean I was doing stuff that would be recognized and that always gave me motivation to go do more crazy stuff. But right now in spite of myself doing good and useful work (strictly by my standards however low they might be), I kind of get a feeling too often that does my work worth anywhere at all. Money does not seem to be a good enough motivation. Some times I just resign, telling myself that to be felt important, I just got to do bigger things other than my office work and whatever I do at the office, I can't really expect more than being paid for that. Other times, I feel guilty of the need to be felt important. Sigh !

PS: On a different note, Congrats to Abhilash, Akhil and venkatesh for finishing second at Amrita ICPC regionls. Most probably will they will be going to World finals. Proud of you guys.